Beta Club, Bras, More

I am really uncomfortable right now. Like, super uncomfortable.
I have a Beta Club initiation on Thursday and we have to dress all fancy and pretty. Because of this, I was forced to go dress shopping. I needed to get some new shoes anyway because the soles were wearing off on mine. While we were there, I picked out two really nice dresses but they weren't flattering to me so we didn't get them. My grandma asked a lady to help us and the lady picked out a dress that I thought was really ugly, but she watched it with a jacket and belt that made it look really good on me. The only issue with the dress then was that it made me look flat chest. I have DD size breast and I was looking flat chested. ;-;
She had me try on one of their bras and all of the sudden, I was not only back to my normal bust size, but double. o.o I thought that they may be padded and as a rule was against that but no, they just had wire.
After we got that outfit and two bras, we went to the mall and I got my first pair of boots.
Let me just say, the smallest things make me super happy. I was so excited to have them, I still am.
The only issue is that they're pretty uncomfortable. ;-;
So, I'm sitting here at school with my new bra and boots, trying to ignore how uncomfortable that they are. The bras wire is poking the soft fleshy part of the inside of my arm and the boots keep pulling my socks down and chaffing me.

School Blocks

I've been helping people get past the school blocks on the laptops all yesterday and today. What we've been doing is downloading Google Chrome and some software called Psiphon3. The software works as a proxy that can't be blocked because it's not a site. It doesn't affect anything, download time, doesn't put any bulky graphics on the page, nothing. The only problem with it is that you have to use Google Chrome which is fine with me because that's what I use anyway. XD
It's funny though because kids have been coming to me in groups to ask for help, even a few of the teachers.
If you block stuff on the computers, people are going to find a way around it. The kids already hacked into the computer and got the wi-fi password for the adult wi-fi which has less blocks, put video games on their computers, and movies. I'm waiting for someone to hack into the administrator account on the laptops and spread the password so people can just change the settings.
I wanted to put an emulator on here so I wouldn't have to download the games separately  but I might not be able to until someone does get the password so I can change the download settings.

Sign Language~

I haven't really had too much interesting going on in my life lately, well, I'm sure that I have, I just can't think of anything.
Right now, I'm working really hard on my sign language. I'm trying to learn the song Snuff by Slipknot is SEE which is turning out to be really hard because a lot of sites want to teach ASL. I would happily learn ASL if I had someone who would sit down and take the time to teach it to me.
Until then, I am slowly working on SEE. I know most of the song, but the signs are mixed between SEE and ASL. ;-; I don't even have the signs for some things because I can't find a sign for them, words like of, that, and to...
Then, I went to an English teacher that I had last year and asked her to help me because she is fluent in sign language. I was so proud when I went in there because I had learned so many more signs since I had last seen her, but then I found out that they were all ASL which doesn't do me any good if there isn't anyone to teach me how to sign it. She helped teach me a few signs in SEE for the song that I need.
I will get this damn it.
And wow, I just want to mention that I am typing really fast on this laptop and it's kinda neat because when I got it, I didn't think that I would be able to do this. ^-^

Thanksgiving & Black Friday

Thanksgiving dinner was amazing. We had turkey, ribs, and ham for our meat and a lot of different sides. Even though I'm allergic to the mushrooms in the green bean casserole, I still gave it a try. It messed with my stomach a little bit, but it was still well worth it.
Instead of staying with my mom and step dad, I went to my grandma's and grandpa's. We had our usual guests, my dad, aunt, uncle, nephew, and great grandma. My uncle and I have had some bad history so I try to avoid him, but he hugged me anyway. Bleugh.
He tried to perform and exorcism on my step dad. -.-
Take that as you may.
After we ate, we sat around and chilled until it was time to take great grandma back to assisted living and go to the store for Black Friday. Dad and I waited in line for around half an hour and then the doors open. Instead of letting everyone run in like I had hoped that they would do, they only let us in by groups.
Dad and I were midway in the line so we didn't get the things that we wanted. I was supposed to run ahead and get a 3DS package and dad was supposed to get a blu-ray player. Both of the deals were gone. Since I figured that grandma would still buy me the 3DS, I grabbed one that wasn't marked down and the Pokemon game that was the main reason that I was getting the system. Then I went and hid somewhere in the store and away from all of the people until grandma, who I call mom a lot so try not to get them confused, was able to get in the store. As soon as she was, she sent me on missions to find several deals and I found them and then returned to her. As long as I had something to do the crowd's didn't really freak me out too much. Once we had done all of our shopping, we had to wait in line. The line took two hours. I called my boyfriend and went walking around the store while mom and dad waited in line.
After we left Target, we ran by Wal-Mart and that was totally empty. Their next deal wasn't until 5 AM so everyone had gone home and would return later.
By the time we had gotten home, we had been out for six hours.
The next day, we put up Christmas lights. ^-^
Now, it's CyberMonday and I'm looking for new shoes. I found a really neat brand called Demonia I mean, they're really neat. You should look them up... Now. They're a bit expensive, but that's okay sometimes for shoes.
I hope that mom will get them for me. She already got my 3DS and three games to go with it. I know that's not cheap. Oh, she got me a big thing of Pokemon cards as well.

College, Thanksgiving, Boyfriend, and Trains. =D

I don't really have anything all that important to type about today, but I haven't updated in a few days and I promised myself that I would keep this updated. >.>
One day I'll go as far as to make illustrations or something....Maybe. I want a tablet.
College... A word that is made to torment man into a world of hectic chaos. Once they escape the prison that is known as high school, college is almost unavoidable. If you don't attend college, you will hear about college everywhere.
I intend to go because I want to be a therapist and that requires a college degree. If I don't get that, I honestly don't know what I would do with my life but I didn't think about that until recently.
I guess it's because it never really fully hit me. I don't think that it has yet, that I will be going off on my own pretty soon.
So, this weekend I spent the night at my grandma's so that I could fill out college applications and blah, blah, blah, blah. It wasn't too bad. I also made an It Gets Better video in sign language.

I really enjoyed doing that because I got to learn a bunch of new signs that I hadn’t known beforehand. I still remember them which is the best part.

Oh, I got to see a childhood friend that I haven’t seen in about three years. She had posted on Facebook about wanting to learn sign language and I commented that my dad and I could help her. We got to talking and while I was at my grandma’s, she came and picked me up. She looks really different. I don’t think that I’ve changed too much in the past several years, though I probably have, but she really has. She had gotten taller and grown into a more proportional adult as well as her voiced had changed. She said that I looked and sounded different as well. She’s also taken up smoking.

                He brother didn’t look too different and he was still as annoying as he’s always been, coming in her room while we were hanging out and being overall aggravating.

I’ll probably go see on her again on Thanksgiving break which really needs to hurry up so that I can get out of school. I’m not thinking about food right now because I ate some semi-raw ham last night and it made my stomach feel bad. I’m thinking about staying up on the phone with my boyfriend all night and sleeping in all day.

Which, one the note of boyfriend, things are going amazingly well with him. I don’t think that I’ve ever been so content in a relationship as I am this one. He’s really sweet, we never fight, and we talk for hours when we get the chance to. Plus, it’s not taxing like some of my other relationships where people had to bring drama into it and so forth. 

The last part of the title, trains, relates back to that kid who passed away at my school. I’ve been a little nervous of trains after driver’s ed showing us a video of people and cars getting hit by them, but that helped remind me just how much that they creep me out. I live near the train track and before, they came so regularly that you just get used to the noise and it doesn’t process when they come. Now, I hear them every time a train comes which is about every thirty minutes to an hour.

I also mentioned it to my therapist and she said that she also thinks that it was suicide because she was told that he was kicked off the baseball team the day before.

R.I.P Dylan, Hama-Con, & Dreams

This weekend was a sad weekend for my high school. We lost a Freshmen Friday afternoon about forty minutes after school got out. His name was Dylan and even though I didn't know him, it's still a bit sad.
He was only fourteen. That's what gets me. Fourteen is way too young to be buried.
Right next to our school, we have a train track. It's not too uncommon for kids to walk on the track for convenience sake. Though, they usually move off of the rails when a train is coming so it's not as big of a deal.
That's why I think this is suicide. He should have felt the rails vibrating or heard the horn. He was walking on the track, not trying to run across the crossing or beat the train.
All the same, I will be attending his funeral and giving my condolences to the family as a fellow school mate. I went to school for a very brief moment before mom checked me out and I felt like I was going to suffocate under the sweltering sadness of people remembering their friend.
Lost but not forgotten.
Though, I can't honestly say that was the highlight of my weekend because I hardly knew him.
What was the highlight of my weekend was going to Hama-Con Saturday. I got up at eight, got dressed and all of that good stuff, then my friend Addie was dropped off at my house.
We stopped by the bank and grocery store so that I could pick up the money to get us lunch. Like the healthy kids that we are we got a 2 litter of Dr. Pepper, Hot Cheetos, Poptarts, M&Ms, and Cheez Its.
It was slightly comical because we were musing about if the two litter would fit in one of our purses while we were at the con and a girl looked at us weirdly. It sounded like we were planning on stealing the soda.
After that, we hurried to the con. The registration wasn't that bad which was pretty nice because the line usually takes a little while. Since I was on the pre-registeration list, it took me less than a minute. It took her maybe three, which all in all for a con isn't too bad.
The convention was a lot of fun to. Maybe it was because I had a good friend there with me as well as several other people that I hang out with in school or maybe it was because I attend cons often enough that I know several people and am comfortable with them.
Addie drug me around the convention to take pictures of the cosplayers for the first half. It was okay even though I jokingly complained because I didn't have any panels that I wanted to be to until later that afternoon.
One of the panels that we attended was the Ninja Panel and that was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed getting to play ninja with a large group of people...Even though I seem to do that pretty often anyway.
It did get a tiny bit awkward around the end though. You see, I went to a really small con at the mall that was more of an anime appreciation day than it was a con. While I was there, some guy from the con added me on Facebook. We started chatting. It wasn't anything serious, just idle chatter. Then when I went to actual con here in town, I overheard him say something to his friend about how he was lucky he avoided that one or something and he blocked me from Facebook.
I don't know what that was all about but it made me feel awkward when we ended up being the last two people in ninja. He won by the way.
The awkwardness didn't last too long though since I had a lot of fun.
I also took a group of cosplayers to the park. I don't remember who's idea that was but we ended up inviting several people that we didn't know and splitting our little horde of food with them. We had an America from Hetalia, a Kaito from Vocaloid, Nyan Cat, and several other people that I don't remember what they were from.
One of the people pulled out two foam swords and my friend and I started larping. The loser had to propose to a random character in the con. I won. =D
She ended up proposing to a Grell.
They all wandered back before my friend and I so we started to clean up the area of trash. Once we were done, we began the trek back. On the way, there were four people sitting on a matt, playing instruments and meditating. We kind of idled over to watch and they invited us to join. In the spirit of not being rude, we gave it a go. It was actually a lot of fun. We chanted with them, danced, and meditated then made our way back to the con. From there, we attended several panels and had a great time.
That is, until my best friend decided that she wanted to come. She invited herself around seven at night, well into the con. She was a little upset at me for not inviting her but I didn't invite her because I knew that she wasn't into those type of things.
I was right.
The entire time she complained and insulted just about everyone there. I love her. I love her dearly, but that is not her enviroment.
She was pretty fun at the rave though. Also, it was hilarious to watch her flee from a cosplayer dressed as death. Apparently she has a fear of people wearing masks as well as hugs.
People at conventions really like to hug.
I mean...They REALLY like to hug.
Addie spent the night and we had a lot of fun making stupid Youtube videos the next day.
As for the third part of the title, I've been having some weird dreams that are kind of creeping me out. Sunday night I dreamt about a school shooting that turned into a slave trade. Basically, they shot up the school and then took some people captor to sell as slaves. It's really rare for me to remember a dream, especially in so much clarity so it creeped me out a bit.
The creepier one was last night though.
i dreamed about a friend who had passed away a few years ago. We were in the car and I asked him why people were saying that he was dead. He told me that he didn't know, people posted stupid shit like that all the time.
I found out about his death on Facebook so that's where it was being posted. He lives in Georgia and me in Alabama so I don't know all the details.
The dream was really details and he had even aged since I last saw him so that's what made it so creepy.

One Is the Lonliest Number ;-;

I have a small anime convention tomorrow. I'm super excited, but at the same time, I'm dreading it.
Per usual, I was the only one of my usual small group to look into it, so I'm the only one going.
I know some people that are going, but none that I really feel comfortable hanging out with.
I'll probably run into a friend or two that I feel comfortable with or make a friend like usual, but we'll see.
Maybe it won't be bad. I went to the first mini-con by myself and I had a good time, but I did have a friend there that I was texting.
Well, kind of a  friend. It was a dude that I was talking to and flirting with. He was working most of the time, but it was nice to know that there was someone that I could go and chill with if I wanted to. I also ended up finding a small group of people that I enjoyed hanging out with and we ran around, hugging people.
Literally, we had a hugging competition.
Well, I know that Julian will be there and I can chill with him a bit, but not the entire time.
Hmm, I'll promise just grab someone who's never been to one before and pay their way.
Someone who's never been would be more fun because watching their face is awesome. Oh, it needs to be someone that is willing to do the rave with me as well, assuming that I rave. They have a Pokemon panel then.
I know who I'm going to ask, but God forbid that they have a yaoi panel. I don't want to get kicked out for her trying to sneak in.